Where I've Been

Some of you that follow my blog are probably surprised to see this entry pop up in your social media feed. You may have wondered where I've been, or even forgotten about me, since it's been 2 months since I've written anything.

Summer has always been a busy time for me, and my family. There's just so much more to do in the summer, and I always need to be outside, and on the go, which means being online has to be done in small intervals. This summer has been no exception to that. We have been trying to get out as much as possible to enjoy the outdoors, and all of the activities that summer brings. They are all of Bean's favorite things to do, so I try to maximize opportunities as much as I can. However, this year has been harder than others to do that due to chronic migraines. Every other day, or two I have one, and it's a struggle for me to keep up with life in general. The swirling nausea, and dizziness slows me down, and the aphasia makes it impossible to write on a lot of days, even if I were to have the time.

Health wise it has been really difficult. Having a chronic illness kind of rearranges your life forcibly in ways you never thought about before, but suddenly have to deal with. I have no choice. It's not heroic, or inspirational, or any of those things. I'm a mother, and a wife, and a human being who has responsibilities. I have to get on with things, even if I have to do so in a different way then I had before. So, things have been prioritized, delegated, rearranged, and done at probably much slower speeds than I used to do them, but they're getting done.

Another reason that I find it hard to find the time to write anymore is that taking care of Beans has really
become a full time job in and of itself. He has become much, much harder to keep up with than he was at 2, 5, or even 9. At 12 he has become quite the problem solver, but is 20 times busier. I don't mean that I feel burdened by him, because I certainly don't. I like caring for him, and being with him, but I do wish I had more support. I am hoping for some respite soon, but so far I have had no luck in finding anyone.

Here soon the weather will cool, and the leaves will begin to change. I will start to spend more time inside writing, baking, and such. For now, the boys, and I are soaking up the last 2 weeks of summer before the pool closes, and school starts. Triple digit temperatures are still the norm here while we finish out August.

I hope to be popping up in your feed more frequently. Thanks for reading!