I have been asking myself some hard questions lately. The kind that lead to hard answers, and even harder changes. I know that I have hinted at being kind of done with autism advocacy, and the autism as a special interest lately. I don't think that I truly am, just yet. However, I am changing how I go about this interest. Sometimes, even I get overwhelmed, and kinda....I don't know know what the word is I am looking for....almost bored, but not quite. Maybe, complacent?
I have personal challenges in my life, as well as the ones I speak about here. I find time to be my biggest contender, yet. I never have enough of it to do what I want, yet... I know that is not true. We all have all the time we need. If we added hours onto everyday, we would still feel like we were lacking in time. It is because we are not spending it wisely. There is a gap in what we are doing vs. what we want to, or know needs done. I think this applies to most people in general, but for me it is a huge factor in my overall life dissatisfaction. Time is currency, because time is money. What we value is apparent by what amount of time we spend on any given activity. If we find that we are not spending time on what we value most, there is likely going to be some conflict.
If you were to ask me I would say that my family is my top priority, and everything that comes with them. However, if one would look at how I spend my time one would think that I value family, and my online activities equally. My priorities are off. I waste my time doing things that I truly don't value as much. and this is causing a huge backlash in my life. I am feeling overwhelmed, because the things that I value most are getting set to the back burner. I feel an urgent need to get them taken care of, but I can't, because I whittled away my time doing inconsequential activities, like checking FB and Twitter.
Don't get me wrong. I love those sites. They are where my friends are, and I have lots of fun on them, but they should only occupy a certain amount of my life. At this point, my FB feed is so full of everything, and more that I cannot get in, and out of FB with any efficiency at all. This frustrates me, and overwhelms me, because this is an activity that I do enjoy, and it does rank up higher on my value list than most things. So, I am redoing my settings again. I am re-setting my boundaries, No groups, and a lot of pages are getting let go of on my likes list. They are filling up my feed, clouding my mind, and keeping me from seeing some of my friend's updates.
I am also pulling back on the amount of time I spend on online activities. Blogging is something that I see a higher value than checking FB, so I may increase this part of my routine. I have so many ideas for home improvement projects that I would love to see some of those come to fruition, as well as I would like to see my new fitness routine keep it's momentum.
There's only 24 hours in a day, but I happen to think it is enough. Not enough time is a myth. I have enough to do what I need to. I just need to re-prioritize my activities. I wonder if I have the self control to keep myself on task, though. That is a bigger question for me. That is my challenge. Much like money, we have to choose what we spend our time on, and sacrifice the immediate gratification of something new, and shiny for something more worthwhile later. The excitement of fast paced social media can be enticing, but I must remember to keep my time expenditures on check.
I'd love to hear some of your ideas on time, and values. Do you find yourself always lacking in time?